We are in the midst of the ups and downs, I suppose. Nesta puked Tuesday night – a lot. I think it was a result of giving him ground beef for dinner, which he enthusiastically scarfed down. He never eats red meet and he ate a lot of it, which he probably doesn’t have room for in his stomach now because of the tumors taking up all the space. So I am chalking it up to that. And then yesterday morning, he did the same thing afte drinking a lot of water. He was super lethargic and didn’t move from one spot in the house all day, seriously, for 10 hours.
But then last night, his gleam and glitter came back and he was walking around the house, drinking while standing at his water bowl, and interested in what I was cooking for dinner – just like always. This morning he still seems more alive than he did yesterday- so much more interested and following me around the house!! I’m so happy to see this, I love having my shadow back, but UGH, this is the most frustrating week ever!!!
Yesterday I even called the home hospice/euthanasia to make a potential appointment for today, but now it seems Nesta is trying to show me he’s okay. He’s still weak and is not interested in going for walks. But inside the house I can tell he wants to be with me, I feel guilty for spending so much time on my laptop lately. I feel like I have been glued to TriPawds this week. Thank God for this community! I now wish I had been more diligent in writing posts about our days over the past 9.5 months. There is so much we did, so much adventure, so much fun! I guess I can go back in time and jot down some stories to remember. Im trying not to have regrets about anything , but of course I do. I just ordered his “Tripawds Rule” Bandana early this week, and he hasn’t even gotten to wear it yet!!!!! Why didn’t I order it 9 months ago??? It could be broken in, stained and and beaten up by now.
All I want to do is lay on the floor with my boy and talk to him and try to figure out how he feels about all this. I am even thinking about contacting a pet communicator, even though I feel I can read him already. But I feel like they could provide some insight. I wonder if anyone here has used a pet psychic before? Here is a blurb from one’s website that I found today online:
“Facing an animal companions dying process and death may be one of the toughest things we will ever go through in our lifetime. Let Amanda help make this difficult time a little more comfortable for you and your beloved animal family. She can easily relay your animals’ perspective on what they are experiencing and what you can do as their caregiver to ease their journey into the Afterlife.”
Amanda states: “Communicating with animals that are nearing their passing and animals that have already passed is by far my favorite part of this work. I feel a very special connection with animals that are nearing their departure or are no longer in their physical form.
“It brings me great joy and satisfaction to assist humans in finding the comfort and peace of mind, in knowing that death is not the end for dear animal friends; it may in fact be the beginning of a new and exciting journey for the two of them together.”
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